I am by no means a bible thumper; I could’ve made a career out of sinning. Yet, in all the bad things I have ever done, I never lost faith in something more pure and beautiful that guides the world to make it a better place. I have hit rock bottom more then once; the higher you go in life, the farther the pit you fall down in. At one of my lowest points in life, I had no where else to turn. I asked God for a sign, an omen, that better days would be coming.
What happened next shook me to the core of my existence. I remember reading about a man who would flip through the bible to a random passage to find the guidance he needed at crucial times in his life. I thought; “It can’t hurt, if I try it just this once”. I was so low and depressed at that point, I would try anything. I started my flipping through the pages until they seemed to come to a stop for me.
My name is Jonathan, for some reason I always considered it to be a modern name. I had no idea of it had any bible references. So when the pages stopped to a passage with my name in it; I was in awe. Curiosity filled my being as I continued reading what seemed unbelievable. I have always had a great interest in enlightened philosophy. I contribute that to being a seeker of all things good. So here is what I read at a time when I needed an omen in life and was desperate to find one anywhere.
Samuel I, chapter 14: “And the men of Israel were distressed that day: for Saul had adjured the people, saying, Cursed be the man that eateth any food until evening, that I may be avenged on mine enemies. So none of the people tasted any food. And all they of the land came to a wood; and there was honey upon the ground. And when the people were come into the wood, behold the honey dropped; but no man put his hand to his mouth: for the people feared the oath. But Jonathan heard not when his farther charged the people with the oath: wherefore he put forth the end of his rod that was in his hand, and dipped it in an honeycomb, and put his hand to his month; and his eyes were enlightened. And answered one of the people, and said. Thy father straitly charged the people with an oath, saying Cursed be the man that eateth any food this day. And the people were faint. Then said Jonathan, My father hath trouble the land: see, I pray you, how mine eyes have been enlightened, because I tasted a little of this honey.” Samuel I, 14
This passage was close to the truth in my heart: I have always tasted the sweet and dangerous honeys in life. Yet, for me it was the path that was necessary to bring me where in needed to go; because it was in my darkest hours that I found my true light. A light I know shall never leave me. My prayer was answered that day, and I shall never forget it for as long as I live.